silens-silentium

from someone’s blog whu took it from an email:

The tale of Love and Madness

A long time ago, before the world was created and humans set foot on it for the first time, virtues and vices floated around and were bored, not knowing what to do.

One day, all the vices and virtues were gathered together and were more bored than ever. Suddenly, Ingenious came up with an idea: Let’s play hide and seek!

All of them liked the idea and immediately Madness shouted: I want to count, I want to count! And since nobody was crazy enough to want to seek Madness, all the others agreed. Madness leaned against a tree and started to count: One, two, three…

As Madness counted, the vices and virtues went hiding. Tenderness hung itself on the horn of the moon, Treason hid in a pile of garbage. Fondness curled up between the clouds and Passion went to the center of the earth. Lie said that it would hide under a stone, but hid at the bottom of the lake, whilst Avarice entered a sack that he ended up breaking. And Madness continued to count: … seventy nine, eighty, eighty one…

By this time, all the vices and virtues were already hidden – except Love. For undecided as Love is, he could not decide where to hide. And this should not surprise us, because we all know how difficult it is to hide Love.

Madness: …ninety five, ninety six, ninety seven… Just when Madness got to one hundred, Love jumped into a rose bush where he hid. And Madness turned around and shouted: I’m coming, I’m coming!

As Madness turned around, Laziness was the first to be found, because Laziness had no energy to hide. Then he spotted Tenderness in the horn of the moon, Lie at the bottom of the lake and Passion at the center of the earth. One by one, Madness found them all – except Love.

Madness was getting desperate, unable to find Love. Envious of Love, Envy whispered to Madness: You only need to find Love, and Love is hiding in the rose bush.

Madness grabbed a wooden pitch fork and stabbed wildly at the rose bush. Madness stabbed and stabbed until a heartbreaking cry made him stop. Love appeared from the rose bush, covering his face with his hands. Between his fingers ran two trickles of blood from his eyes.

Madness, so anxious to find Love, had stabbed out Love’s eyes with a pitch fork. What have I done! What have I done! Madness shouted. I have left you blind! How can I repair it?

And Love answered: You cannot repair my eyes. But if you want to do something for me, you can be my guide.

And so it came about that from that day on, Love is blind and is always accompanied by Madness.

Been quite long since I last blogged. I’m damn sleepy now. Not enough sleep the past few nights. Alot of fun, yes, but I’ve come to relaise a few certain things too. Not sure where I found the time to ponder over such stuff too, maybe during the time while I was playing Resident Evil 3? Double-tasking haha.

CNY is always fun for me. Or was. Its getting very superficial nowadays. Angbaos (by the way junhui sorry dun have any for you lolx) and eat, eat and eat. Atmosphere? What atmosphere? Does it mean squeezing with like 900000-100000 other people at Waterloo Street and watching the firecrackers go off? Does it mean just cards and video games and karaoke? I guess these are all just a means to an ends, but not sure that it holds true anymore today. I guess it has become more of an end to itself, no longer just a means.

Completed Resident Evil 3 for the very first time over the CNY break. The story turned out to be quite interesting, and much more complicated than i initially thought. Hope i have the time to get the complete boutique suite and complete the mecenaries’ game too. RPG games are just too fun man……though they really are addictive and very time-consuming.

Been sleeping at 2-3 am in the morning coz i just have so, so, so much work to complete. I think tonight will beat the rest hands down man. History essay due, physics practical, maths ’s’, physics tute. Oh man. That’s it for me.

Going to K box again on saturday. I think i’m addicted to it already man. What’s wrong with me. Oh well, I have the 30 dollars voucher anyway so who cares. heard mr. lee(physics tutor) invited us to our house, so maybe going there after K session(or K lunch lolx).

Having a blocked nose currently. Its quite irritating, considering that i’m trying quite hard to get inspiration for my essay. Anyway, yeof, if they’re so boliao to do source code viewing, then really, i think their hard work deserves some reward….though i really cant see why someone will go to that extent of trying to peep. If you want to read my blog, just ask me for the password. Simple what. Oh, and zx, i really admire you man. How in the world can you stay ahead of your school work with all that cca commitments? YOU GAY!!!!!!! lolx…….

back to history. Bye to my sleep tonight.

oh, and congrats lifen, you’re promoted! =) i knew you could do it! All the hard work has paid off!

Ok, its going to 2 am now. What the heck am I staying up so late tonight? And to think in ther afternoon I actually thought I could finally get a proper night’s rest, after a full week of 1-2 am nights. Supposed to do history essay now, but I’m quite sick of it. Not sure how to phrase the points properly, where to get elaboration and substantiation and so on. Anyway, I’ve decided to continue tomorrow. Hopefully, I’ll do better. I’ll try to finish the readings tonight though.

Undone or half done holiday homework is seriously killing me. Plus new topics perennially popping up (esp for phy), I’m seriously wondering how I’m going to cope with it. Luckily though, the topics don’t seem that hard yet. I’m doing quite ok with Maths and econs, but History and Physics are the subjects i’m worried about. Physics most of all since I haven’t touched anything since electric fields. Plus ‘S’ papers (I tell you, phy ’s’ sucks), and the workload is never-ending. So glad that CNY is around the corner. A bit of breathing space there, though I’ll have to mug through the festivities for SAT i think.

Anyway i think Samuel Lim is a joker. Not the kind that Mr. Sayers is, but rather the kind where he makes a fool of himself. the only time I saw someone behave like was my female niece who was throwing a tantrum, sounding like some pampered kid. Almost exact replica i can tell you. At least his notes look more organised than Menon though. She’s still the ultimate.

I bought a new bowling ball on tuesday, after pooling with ben tan. haha brunswick power groove, 14 pounder, ice blue colour. It looks really cool. Hope my bowling will turn for the better from now on. Really want to be in the first team when competition arrives. Anwyay some of the j1s are fuckers. I hate to use this word, espeically in this blog, but i can’t find any word to describe them. I don’t understand why they would even want to cheat me of 50 cents. Oh well, and to think one of them is my junior from RI somemore. Totally disgusting. And he doesnt know how to bowl, forever fouling or going into the drain. Our very own future “gutter boy”. the girls are not bad larz, but the guys, apart from 2, all quite no hope, like me.

Enough of bowling. Heard huang hun by zhou chuan xiong on violin with piano. Seriously haunting. It sounds different, totally different from the the actual version. Suddenly, it was as if all the melancholy within me weere pouring in; my eyes actually filled with tears. Lucky they didn’t fall. Not sure why I got this sudden reaction, but I hazard a guess why. I’m being quite shameless, but maybe i should join them and perform for musicfest. they provide the music, i sing. *shrugs*

I guess after today i got another gllimpse into what the word love actually contains. Apart from all the normal descriptions of it: caring, cnsiderate, helpful, generous and all other morally correct values, the most important thing is that of selflessness. Otherwise, nothing would differentiate love from just an act of, for example, generosity.

Talking about love, i guess i’ve finally decided to leave it as it is, and let Nature take it course. maybe I’ll regret this 10 years down the road, or even 10 months down the road, at the prom night, but as for now, I think it’s best for both. It started with me and should also end with me, not the other party. I guessed I might have put the other party through some unwanted attentions and jokes, and I really feel guilty about it. The worst form of punishment is to see others suffer for the wrongdoings you make, especially those who are special to you. *sigh* I’m not sure whether this is the end, but i hope not, but as I’ve said, I’ll let Nature take its course, andif we’re meant to progress, we will. For now, let sleeping dogs lie and just let me suffer alone.

Anyway haha grace jun hui wadshername is my cousin. She’s currently studying in university, I’ll let her do the rest of the introduction herself. Anyway, thanks for tagging everyone, but please tag more? I know there’s nothing controversial to talk or exclaim over, but still, just leave a note or something. Otherwise i’ll jsut have to resort to planting lame jokes on the tagboard……

gotta get back to reading now. write again soon.

I still think we’re living in an opopanax.

I’m supposed to be doing ‘S’ maths questions now, but anyway I’m doing my normal sneaking around coz maths tuition tonight has been cancelled. Ok, fine, even if there was maths tuition, I would still be writing this blog coz I’m a secret slacker? Anyway, I’m really starting to get into the “play hard, work hard” mood already. Really, quite an accomplishment and I hope this can endure permanently, or more realistically, until my A levels are over.

Didn’t really know what to write on actually, until I read other people’s blog. They all seem so infinitely on and positive; wonder whether its because of the new year spirit, or the orientation, or just God-knows-what. I don’t really envy them anyway, I’m quite satisfied with my life at the moment, though it may change in the future, or near future.

I’m no longer the history rep. Free again, once more. No more responsibilities and so on. I guess I’m going to miss all the stuff that comes with that of being a history rep, even though those “stuffs” are really irritating sometimes.

Had the meet the junior session. Hmmz. Not much of an impression, but hey, I guess at our seniors also didn’t have much of an impression of us too I guess. Haha. Noticed that their class doesn’t realy mix though, quite the opposite to our class. Ok the fact is very few classes are like 03S62 too, so what am I comparing with man?

Chinese New Year is coming really soon. That means SAT and the common tests are also approaching. Damn. I hope I’m ready for them. I wonder how CNY will be like this year. Sincerely hope it will be memorable, I’m looking forward to seeing my 4C classmates again.

The old feelings are returning again. I feel quite terrible when such feelings rise again. Damn whats the problem with me? Heard alot of thrid party and break-ups recently. *no comment* I guess if one goes into relationship thinking that it wouldn’t last, then whats the point of going into a relationship in the first place? Might as well remain very good friends instead. I shan’t say more coz its purely subjective and really, a few people around me feel that way too. *zip*

My trend of thought seems quite broken. I’m just enjoying the relative lull in my surroundings now. Quiet serene, peaceful, breezy, seems a good time to mug.

I wonder if we’re living in an opopanax.