I’m feeling more and more useless by the day.
Cant believe up till this very moment that i screwed up my fucking maths test after such extensie preparation, tell me why? I’m one of the lowest in class and seriously, i think that’s te end of my ‘s’ papers already. I definitely don’t deserve such fucked up results for all my efforts. Someone tell me why, when i dont fucking study or prepare, and do fucking last minute work, i can do so much better than when i prepare so fucking hard for the fucking test? I just dont understnad…..i really dont get it……..why why why???????
Dont feel like writing anymore. Maybe i should just wall myself from the world and destroy my social life completely, for the sake of my ‘A’s. But that isnt the solution. It never was….. what’s happening to me?
I understand a little more behind why my parents tell me never to fall in love in JC, but even then, thats not an excuse for my state. whats wrong?
I’ll wall myself up for a few days.
Using my dad’s laptop coz the hard disk crashed.
everything seems so be crumbling around me.