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April 21, 2004

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Filed under: Uncategorized — Nicholas @ 1:54 am

feel quite confused and stressed now. Trying very hard to finish up my GP essay once and for all. But really, i can’t concentrate now. Distractions….1) PW still haunting me even though i’m ok about it 2) Bowling…the scene of me screwing up my last shot also still haunting me 3) personal stuff……

I dunno, its 3) thats still bugging me alot……

Someone asked me if girls are that hard to understand today. Yes they are, and i bet all the guys agree…. Haiz….serously i wish sometimes i could have the power to read minds, maybe I’ll be a much less distracted person….

Oh well I shan’t read too much into anything….. thanks for the blue highlighter anyway….

back to Gp…no mood to write long entries….bye…

bowling selection on thursday…wish me luck…

April 15, 2004

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Filed under: Uncategorized — Nicholas @ 2:18 am

Last night, and yes, tonight, I was reading quite a few people’s blog. Realised that I’ve actually distanced myself from a few of my friends unintentionally. Really quite sad to see such relationships deteriorate to mere acquaintances or just classmates. Mabel was telling me that it was just another consequence of getting to know other people in class better. Is it true? Does it mean that sooner or later, I’ll lose all my friends in primary, secondary, and JC when I step out into the working world? It’s something really worth pondering about as lasting friendships are supposed to be formed in secondary and JC years of our lives. I don’t really want to stick to one clique, I mean what’s the point? With cliques come prejudices, with prejudice comes misunderstanding, which leads to hatred…..

Ok that was abit out of point. Anyway, at least I tried today, hope its a small step towards injecting new life into a stagnant friendship. I promise I’ll TRY not to zhong4 se4 qing1 you3 already ok? Oh well, talking about today. Nothing much lar. Spent surprisingly alot of time with Bryan and Ben Foo doing nonsense and talking cock during the free periods. Surfed some lame paranormal site by Singaporean, come on man, how lame can they get? I’m not denying that some are true, but come on, some of the pictures are taken from movies (the Eye?) and the rest are how stupid. Example: In Unexplained happenings there’s this stupid picture of a superbig cat (overeating??) and so on. Really stupid man. Anyway talked in the canteen too about the china poly student’s remarks about Singaporeans. Hmmz, talking about it I spent quite alot of time with Lifen too, which is quite nice given that I aven really been talking to her much.

Went out lunching with Ben Tan and talked about a variety of topics. Feel better after telling him some stuff, even though he maynot have caught it, after all, I just mentioned it in passing. Oh yes, but it really caused me alot of hurt, really. I’m still not over it yet, though the anger and hurt has subsided. And yes, not eating canteen food or fast food really feels good.

Went late for the FIREFLY talk. Hmmz. Ok larz not too bad but nothing really striking too.

Got training later. Shit I really got no time to really sit down and do my GP essay. Sorry Mr. Chua, I just can’t find one and a half hours to consolidate my thoughts and really write an essay. Hope you wun misunderstand. Fuck i’m really damn stressed. Tests are coming up, scholarships are coming up, S papers are coming up, and competition is coming up too–> and yes, the selection for first team starts next week with the roll off. Sorry teachers really got to pardon me until 17 May.

Going to orh orh alr. nitez everyone!

P.S.: “When someone slaps you on one cheek, offer him the other.” JC life really has tamed me alot, and yes the easiest motto to live by is “Others before self”. Yes the easiest. Think about it.

April 14, 2004

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Filed under: Uncategorized — Nicholas @ 12:31 am

fuck my entry just got deleted for no reason.

no mood to retype anything.

why is my day so fucked up today?

i’m not particularly daoing anyone other than someone.

Yet I cant stop caring.

I think i’m a fucking dumbass.

April 11, 2004

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Filed under: Uncategorized — Nicholas @ 10:57 pm

Tiring day man. Woke up at nine to start off my history essay, when I slept like nearly three the night before chatting at my aunt’s place. then my parents went to church, my mum accompanying my dad to the baptism rites. No he wasn’t getting baptised, rather he was one of the teachers and facillitators to those getting baptised. Haha he’s so proud he’s a godfather he’s announcing it to the whole world. Anyway, while my dad was happily becoming a godfather and my mum was happily nodding off too, I was meanwhile at Victor’s Bowl trying out the lanes. Tell you man, the wooden lanes rox totally man (as what bryan would put it: rox my sox…) Anyway, i played eight games in total…average was about 150+, my highest was about 180+, with two (or three?) 170+ but still, theree were two 120+ which pulled down my average. My sparing seems very good there, really boosted my confidence…. but still I’m leaving an average of three open frames in the game: one at the start, one in the middle and one at the end….such mistakes are really costly. That needs to be improved on. My movement (arm movement and direction) needs to be more consistent too….i think i’m mastering to art of aiming arrows. =) Five more weeks to competition, i think i can do it…. Met Mrs Liew, one of our bowling teachers-in-charge; as her daughter was bowling in the competition there. Had a very productive chat with her; I hope some of the feedback i gave to her proved useful, i certainly hope to see positive changes soon….

Things to improve: 1) getting a clean game; 2) arrow aiming 3) arm direction when releasing and follow through….

Apart from that nothing really much…went to take photo for my scholarship thing….then went for dinner at east coast. Came back and typed history essay. Nothing much larz really…

Anyway thanks to all of you who snapped up my fun fair tickets…really appreciate that alot…..thanks lots peeps!!!

Going to sleep now…I hope Arsenal wins…though that means Brian will lose his $150 bet…. hahahahahahahahaha…..
I’m sadistic man…

April 8, 2004

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Filed under: Uncategorized — Nicholas @ 11:39 pm

Just touched home. Wondering why MINDEF hasn ‘t sent my my new password yet….seriously i think right the MINDEF website sucks to the core…but oh well, its typical government stuff…so full of bullshit. Anyway came back from a round of church visiting, as per normal each year on this thursday, the day before good friday. Before that had training. Quite tired now, so I will keep this short (KISS –> Keep It Short, Sucker) lol.

Training today wasn’t really good. Didn’t really start well, with my horrific consistency problem and the cross sparing problem rearing its ugly head again. Thanks to one superb piece of advice from my pro junior Joseph though (he’s seriosuly good), my score rose tremendously in the game at the end of training. His advice was: Just try to be yourself, dun be pressurised by the coach. I guess that has been my greatest weakness so far in the last few trainings: lack of sself confidence and too eager to impress the coach, which obviously resulted otherwise. so from the first three frames of open-spare-open, i managed to close all the other frames, which was helped by the fat i did not really have any tough shots to convert…..thanks lots Joseph for that peice of advice. 191. haha highest score for the guys today…=) so happy…although it must be clarified that Joseph was off-form today and brian did well too…170+…though he has to work on his sparing… Reflecting on it, actually i could have done better, if i wasn’t distracted by Yao chen’s lame joke about “strike home alabama”…not his fault la…but it shows i have to work on my concentration….

I’m making good progress towaards my goals for the national 2004. Things to improve: 1) 7-pin and 4-7 pin sparing; 2) concentration.

oh well….tired out…shall bathe now…good night! Oh and i’m selling tix to my vjc fun fair on 1 may…please come down and support k! I’m selling the tix…its priced at 10 bucks each so if you are interested please please do contact me….

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