silens-silentium

thanks to some guy called hartono, i’ve been having spidey dreams…here’s one i can remember:

let’s see, yes i’m spiderman. hmmz then i see myself swinging around… funny thing is although i think i’m in ny, i see singapore-like buildings. hmmz the difference here thogh is that i’m mute. i cant speak (webbed my own mouh maybe), so if you think parker in the movie was loser-ristic enough not to be able to tell mary jane he likes her, think about this spidey. yes and mary jane… well confuses him, sometimes so nice, sometimes so far and distant. he wants to tell her he likes her..but he doesnt (or cannot). he wants to tell her that he has liked her since young(like what the heck!!) and even writes a letter…but she has gone overseas when he goes to her house the next time….. then after that i woke up. I cant remember seeing baddies like ock… but i think being caught in no man’s land is bad enough.* What a rubbish dream.

anyway, my dad’s recovering. its disgusting man… the amount of blood he vomitted after taking out the paddings in his nose. My gosh… i tell you the amount of blood (the liquid antiseptic+blood) filled like 3 small bags… the first bag was so red…the second was better… I promise i’ll take better care of my health…

had physics prac. i think i did fine… and i hope i did fine too!oh well as long as not too many marks are deducted… sigh. my revision’s going like crap.

going for psc talk later then tuition with my dreaded maths tutor. nothing much to look forward to these days. oh well, that’s life.

*that was an analogy, i wonder who can understand what i’m really trying to say…

Feels good to be off school at last. finally i can start my revision proper. Ok that’s self-delusion. But at least i don’t have to waste time attending stupid lessons anymore… some lessons are quite useless anyway.

had gp on monday. manoman i have this feeling that they’re out to screw us. Maybe its just me lar, as usual, even after much practising, i still couldn’t break the barrier and write an essay that explicitly answers the questions. Explicitly. I was hoping to get a 35/6 for an essay finally, coz i knew my compre would more or less screw up, which i did in the application question. Sigh, i’m still crossing my fingers and praying for an a….

Anyway, i was wondering what would happen to my social life after i graduate from school. Will I become like totally lonely and just be like a couch potato and surf the net, watch tv and lead a loser’s life? sigh. never mind. i’ll try not to think about it. But such solitude and isolation doesnt seem such a bad idea, esp after losing my phone on saturday. At least people who want to chase me cannot do so. HA.

Ok spiderman rocks. And cliff you dick i’m hooked on it… its 24 for one collection and its burning a hole in my wallet… sigh. But it’s inspiring…. at least to me.

I better not blog anymore. thats it then….. the house is so quiet… sigh. there’s no one to talk to.

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K peepz my handphone got stolen so please do not sms me or call my handphone for the time being. Spread the message pls thanks.

That being said, I promise to &*%*&%*%& that motherf^%$ if I ever catch him/her. that fella had better not be from my condo, otherwise i’ll *&%$%&^%^*$)*(^*%*%*(&&%%$*%(^%$% that (*^(*^%&*%%^(%^&*….

Ok enough of ranting. Btw i’m still waiting for my case study econs test from DET… hope i can get it back soon. Oh and for those blur sotongs out there, GP prelims is tomorrow, so dun forget ya?

Feeling super moody and fucked up. The whole weekend has just been plain lousy, lousy, lousy. Ok i’ll stop whining then.

good luck everyone for their prelims… yes and this includes the mother&$% too if he/she is having prelims…

I’m getting quite irritated with my maths tutor. All along i’ve already felt that he’s been having it easy teaching me, someone that doesnt really need much attention. i mean, come on, where else can you get a student where you 1) can read newspaper 2) talk to wife/kid/friend 3) talk cock and about soccer, all during lessons? Fine, i dun mind that. Next, does it mean that I’m from RI means i’m deprived of the priviledge to ask maths questions? Please man, there are times where I really can’t see the trick. yes I’m slack, but that doesnt mean I dun have the right to ask questions? so RI+lazy= you cannot ask questions? Next, the reason why I got him as a Maths tutor is because I need help in Maths, so definitely I pay you to ask questions right? Fine. then whe I ask the questions you dun have to give me that fucking kind of tone.

Ok anger vented. not really actually. i feel like ranting about our DET (dear econs teacher), the screwed-up schoo*, the f-ed up education system, and so on. But never mind, i think so many people have written about it that i wouldn’t make much of an impact anyway.

feel quite sad for susilo… going so far then collapsing against an opponent he should have won. Sigh. There goes our medal hopes. Well done ronald anyway, you’ve already done Singapore proud by beating the world no 1.

watching table tennis now….. jiawei is winning… hope she can get the medal that eluded her bf. =) nite!