I just watched another romantic movie again on Channel U. Title?Tiramisu. Reminded me of Fly me to Polaris. And arose certain feelings within me that I had not felt for a long long time.
Somehow or another romantic and touching movies like this (though I felt this was defnitely not as good as Fly me to Polaris) always leads me to asking myself (while looking at the mirror) when I’ll get the chance to experience it. I shan’t dwell on it. sigh.
I feel very empty these few weeks. Been immersing myself in work, dota-ing and reading, but it seems that there is something missing. Recently I started asking myself again what’s the meaning of life, my life, and I can’t couldn’t come up with a convincing answer anymore. Maybe I’m still running away: from my A-levels results, from loneliness, from despair. Before i sleep every night, I just help but thinking to myself “Nicholas, what a useless fella you are. What contribution have you made to deserve your continued existence in this world?”
I’m seriously contemplating the thought becoming a priest. But i… i really do want to experience what love is…..
I want to believe that there is someone somewhere in the world is meant to be my other half….
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