May 2005

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Well its a tuesday now and I’m already so tired it seems that i’ve worked for like one week already. Anyway at least I’ve more work to do now. Hope it doesn’t overwhelm me.

Was reading a friend’s blog (I seem quite blog-surferish these few days) and then I came across this “poem”-like entry which detailed his “perfect” wife, which sort of rose very strong feelings within me. ok, first please let me clarify that i’m not targeting anyone in a personal way.

I’m quite surprised that in today’s age and “supposed” maturism in society, the status of women should be viewed as equal to that of men? True? Well the feminists will argue “hell no women still do not have equal rights.” The traditional men will say “well you can have your equal rights and go out to work but please clean the damn floor first. or were you expecting me, the head of the house to do it?”

I’m not sure if i can articulate my thoughts and feelings clearly with regard to that entry, basically the closest words that could describe it was “oh my god…” Disgusting, degrading, and to me, it makes a total mockery out of 1) education, 2) basic human rights, 3) marriage and 4) religion.

1) Education
12 years of education taught us a myriad of things. It taught us how to be rational, how to be logical, how to be practical, and most importantly, it taught us our VALUES, THINKING and ATTITUDE towards everything around us. And yes, MATURITY of thought. Well seems modernism of thought has only penetrated into society academic-wise, if my friend’s blog entry is used as a yardstick. the attitude towards women as submissive, docile and good at bed still remains, not of one where women are viewed as equal and as human as us guys.

2) Basic Human rights
Well, as i said, if you treat your wife like a prize, what rights are you allowing her? “Dearie you can have all the free time in the world, the career you want to pursue, but you also have to save 3/4 of your income a month, have sex with me when i want to, stay slim and sexy so i can get horny often, be a damned sucessful career woman so i can show you off, wash the dishes, mop the floor, keep the house clean and tidy…..” Lip service.

3) Marriage
Well its a union between a man and a woman, NOT an absorption of a woman into a man. i shan’t say more about it.

4) Religion
Morally sensitive, so if you want my thought you can always sms or call me.

All I can say to this friend of mine is: i ‘ve always known you to be like this, still, i’m quite disappointed by the depth in which you have such a mentality, especially after reading this post.

I’m not a feminist. I also have my own biased viewed towards women, but at least I make an effort to treat them as equals and definitely, I’ll treat my wife like a WIFE. Shit that reminds me of stuff again.

Shall go to sleep and stop dwelling over things… must remember that my mdm told me not to get a gf and get married so young… lolx…

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I just blasted this tagger called “passerby” on my friend’s tagboard. Not sure why i did it, coz i’m usually not so worked up when I read comments or tags, but this tagger really pissed me off. Well i can think of a few reasons now:

a. The person he blasted, who i consider as my good friend, is definitely underserving of such comments. from what i know, my friend is someone who is very mature and really thinks everything through from every angle before he comes to a decision.

b. From my conversations with this particular good friend mine, he is really torn between choosing this option or that option, and I strongly believe that such lousy f***ed-up comments from this “passerby” definitely does not help me make-up his mind. Instead, I think my friend will get more confused instead.

c. I firmly believe in constructive comments and suggestions, not criticism. What this “passerby” just did was as good as administering a slap on my friend’s face.

If i ever see him commenting like this on my blog, I promise i’ll hunt him down and trash him real good.

Anyway, I’ve decided on a few things:

1. No more dotA, maybe once a week. I have to start preparing for uni alr.

2. I will make an effort to treat my parents much, much better.

3. I’m going to start intensifying my exercising regime.

4. I want a gf.

I spent almost one whole day brooding over the direction in life I should take after realising the emptiness and loneliness of floundering around doing mindless and stupid stuff.

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Watched Kingdom of Heaven this evening.

I finally get to watch a hollywood movie with a plot and an underlying theme, and i thoughit was really quite timely. Everytime I read about the discrimmination against the muslims after 911 (i mean apprehension is understandable but hostility?), and the supposed “freedom” and “democracy” bullshit by our dear Georgie, I keep getting reminded of the Crusades. Quite a thought provoking movie actually, the question “What is Jerusalem?” was very poignant.

“What is Jerusalem” indeed. A few responses to mull over in the movie.

King Baldwin: ” Jerusalem is me.”

Tiberias: ” I first started out fighting for religion, but then I found out I was fighting for the wealth and glory.”

Saladin: ” It’s nothing….. and everything.”

Balian: ” Your brother’s (Baldwin) Kingdom was in here (points to his mind) and in here (points to his heart), and as long as its there, it will never be defeated.”

Well congrats Balian, at least you found the salvation you were looking for.
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To other things.

I got the letter from NUS finally. good for me.

I’m still thinking too much about… about my life. I just can’t seem to shake off this feeling that my dream of the future life and the purpose of my being in this world deviates, well maybe I should say runs in two different directions.

Sigh.
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I had a beautiful dream last night…

I wish I never had to wake up from that dream…

well… maybe maybe what i wish for does come true…. at least in my dreams….

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I took an mc today.

I really wanted to go to work today, but the migraine was really very bad. At least being at work takes my mind off alot alot of questions.

I still have not received a reply from NUS yet. Seems they are still “processing” my application.

I look at my life now and I wonder whether there is any meaning in it. I don’t believe in anything anymore, and finding a meaning in life first requires a firm and strong belief in something. I’m just drowning myself now in sad romantic TV serials where most of the characters live happily ever after, and I wonder: does that ever happen in real life?

Maybe I’m just not good enough.

the questions swimming around in my head are tearing me apart. which explains my migraine i guess.

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