I don’t know how to begin this post (actually I have alr, what irony).
I remember 3 weeks ago i finally said to myself, “Nic, just give it up. It not worth waiting and pining for someone whom you know would most prob not like you. Its been XXXX years, how long more are you gonna wait?” I finally exorcised the ghost that had been lurking below my conscious mind, where thoughts about a certain person would often surface when watching romance animes like Kimi Ga Nozomu Eien, Onegai teacher, and most recently, Suzuka. So I thought.
I shall not go into details, but I guess I went into overdrive again after something happened.
Here I am again, trying to convince myself to forget. The more I think, the less I understand about this feeling called “love”. What is it? What causes an attraction between a guy and a girl? I really don’t know.
On to another topic, yy was telling me the other day about global dimming, and how the world would press the button towards self-destruction if nothing was done these 25 years. Suddenly reminded of my mortality, I guess it awakened in me a sense of responsibility towards a world i’ve long discarded. Somehow or another I kept being reminded of the Saikano ending……
I believe I have to do something about it. Maybe I finally have a career to pursue in mind.
Sobering questions… reminds me of another phrase heard in a drama series, “Dreaming is always good and nice, but eventually one has to wake up, and thats where the battle begins.”
I wonder if I should continue dreaming, and just let everything around me fade away.
P.S. i listened to the OST for Saikano again today, for some reason, I couldn’t help but tear. No matter, to me the Saikano OST is still one of the most touching OSTs I’ve heard so far.
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