silens-silentium

And to think I was looking forward to this week, where I thought I could finalyl take a long break and enjoy myself thoroughly. Call it whining if you want, but it’s been a damn fucked up week for me, and its only tuesday.

I want to rant, and I am ranting coz there is no one who will and is willing to listen to me.

I was faked on Sunday, late for work on Monday, pissed off a new found friend inadvertantly on Monday evening. Fed like mad during dotar on monday and Tuesday, getting ks-ed all the time (in pte games i really mind, even then 1 kill the whole game is hardly justified), even when playing pubs. I dunno what the fuck is happening to me. Its been a fucking nightmare for me this two days, and i just want to forget forget forget forget forget forget whatever that happened this week.

I feel so fucked up now.

*deep breath*

Ok enough of ranting. Thank you for listening to my rants.

And to think I was looking forward to this week, where I thought I could finalyl take a long break and enjoy myself thoroughly. Call it whining if you want, but it’s been a damn fucked up week for me, and its only tuesday.

I want to rant, and I am ranting coz there is no one who will and is willing to listen to me.

I was faked on Sunday, late for work on Monday, pissed off a new found friend inadvertantly on Monday evening. Fed like mad during dotar on monday and Tuesday, getting ks-ed all the time (in pte games i really mind, even then 1 kill the whole game is hardly justified), even when playing pubs. I dunno what the fuck is happening to me. Its been a fucking nightmare for me this two days, and i just want to forget forget forget forget forget forget whatever that happened this week.

I feel so fucked up now.

*deep breath*

Ok enough of ranting. Thank you for listening to my rants.

I suddenly realised that I still haf a blog, and decided that I owed my blog a long overdue post.

In any case, I’m bumming around at home right now. Been quite a lonely weekend for me, spending most of my sat and sun at home with no one in particular. So the itinery for this weekend was: anime (Cowboy Bebop), dotar, chatting on bnet mdf channel, and sleeping.

I doubt I’ll be going out anytime soon too…. I juz checked my account balance and its like 600+, and going from the way i’m withdrawing like $50 as it is, i’ll wind up with not much savings. sigh. and to think i was actually trying to save up for my expenses during university.

In any case, I was forced to re-evaluate/re-look my outlook towards relationships and love during the course of my nightly bnet-ing. the result: I am currently trying to stick to the conviction that the particular someone I “like” is not the right person for me. Why? i juz realised that the basics to a good relationship is communication, and if I cannot hold a decent conversation long enough (eg 10-15 min), on the phone, then I guess there’s something quite wrong. I agonised over this the most of sat actually, which explained my foul mood and inaction over the weekend I guess.

That being said, I’m still looking out for my potential other half…maybe she’ll appear soon… or has she? *shrugs*

back to dotar then. still seeking a goal in life…. i’m juz not cut out to be a striker i guess.