May 2006

Belated thank yous… and Bishi Bashi Trashing!

Erm, I think it is abit late, but better late than never I guess.

In any case, this blog post by a guilty me is to this beautiful ( I surmise, I haven’t seen her before, REALLY!!!) lady calling herself joyce who chanced across my blog via wholivesnearme.com, and left a nice message about my writing. Thank you! I couldn’t send you a belated reply via the moneysucking website, so I’ve no choice but to thank you here. Will endeavour to keep up the writing (somewhat low quality though) standards on this blog.

Anyway, please do not join wholivesnearyou.com While it may look innocent and free, in fact its not. You need to pay to use all its critical services like messaging, viewing profiles etc., i.e. you pay because of idiotic spammers creating trouble in that website. Grr…. And I thought I could finally understand my community more. Oh well.

In any case, I can’t exactly remember who recommended me to join this webby. Wanted to attend the vjc band concert, but tixs are sold out! Was quite surprised actually. Oh well..

Why do i seem so unlike myself today? I think I’m suppressing the feelings within, more specifically, the loneliness… and my 1/6 Saber is not that huggable. Sigh. Off to sleep then.

P.S. Btw, Ben Tan and I got trashed in Bishi Bashi by two young ladies at the arcade in Tampines Mall this evening. The particular lady on the left was really chio, the really oriental type. Darn, wanted to get their number by continuing to play after they completed, but Ben had to leave. Oh well…… Will pay the place a visit tmr. Hopefully I’ll get lucky.

Oh yeah, the chio girl was pro too… not as pro as the other though. But life is fair huh? :D

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Band of Brothers…

I’ve always thought my imagination fertile; I’ve always claimed (even bragged sometimes), that I’d rather read books/novels than watch movies/serials; because I am able to visualise/imagine the scenes better in my head.

Until now.

I’ve known/learnt for 6 years about the Holocaust that happened during WWII in Germany, the concentration camps. 5 million ethnic minorities, 6 million Jews, execution chambers, sadistic games with human fodder etc. But these remained mere figures, despite my so-called fertile imagination. Sympathy yes, but that was all to it.

I’ve just finished Band of Brothers episode 9, aptly titled “Why do we fight?”. Watching this episode, the enormity of those atrocious (I wonder if this word is indeed strong enough to describe) crimes finally struck me.

Why do we fight wars? In the hope that others can one day see peace.

Why do we fight on, despite knowing we will die? So that others may live.

Why do we have wars at all? I have no answer to that. Perhaps someone might venture an explanation?

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Ichi Ritoru No Namida Review

A book review I wrote on A Liter of Tears for my unit:

The Apr-Jun quarter is an especially quarter for us. From BMT dispersals, end of work year meetings to WOPC preparations, there seems no end to the piling load we are tasked with.As we bustle about trying to clear that mountainous load of backlog, we sometimes curse and grumble at the expectations we’re somehow forced to meet. Thus is the harsh reality of the corporate world, of which CPC is also not exempt from. As we rush down the paths our work leads us, have we ever stopped or paused, and take a look around us? Or maybe, reflect on what we have done so far and marvelled at what we have achieved?

I guess this brings me to the book review I’m supposed to present to you: A lesson in appreciating the little things in life. Titled A Liter of Tears, this autobiography chronicles the strugglesof this particular Japanese girl, Kito Aya, against an incurable neurological disease, Spinocerebellar Degeneration. A short description of this scary disease is perhaps needed in order for you,the reader, who has kindly taken time off to read this review, to maybe appreciate this book better. Spinocerellar Degeneration as mentioned earlier, is a neurological disease which affects the cerebellum, causing the neurons in our cerebellum to dissociate. Simply put, the cerebellum controls all our conscious (and sub-conscious) movements, from eating to typing to running. Whenthe cerebellum degenerates, the affected person slowly loses control of his movements, and as it progresses, his/her sense of touch/feeling fades too. This effectively means that the patient wouldslowly be unable to run/walk, be unable to grip things, be unable to talk, be unable to eat/control basic functions of our body. Eventually, at the final stage of the disease, the patient lies immobileon the bed, waiting for his/her life to be taken away. What is most traumatising about this disease is that the patient’s mental faculties remain intact, and he/she is totally aware and conscious ofhis/her degenerating body. What would you do if one day, you were told that you would eventually end up like this?

Back to the story, this autobiography, collated from numerous diary entries written by Kito Aya, documents her indomitable spirit in fighting a hopeless battle against the disease. I was reallytouched and impressed by the way she somehow coped with her slowly degenerating body, how she bravely faced the prospect of being transferred from a normal school to a school for the disabled, how she, despite her immense difficulties, tried to make herself an asset, rather than a liability in anyway possible. Lastly, her abilty to remain so positive about life through a liter oftears, and how she managed to somehow appreciate the little things we take for granted left an indelible mark in my mind.

Lessons to take away from the book, which i’ve tried to classify into 3 broad categories:

1. To the NSFs - I know sometimes you feeling overwhelmed by work, by the weight of expectations on your shoulders. You feel the heat of filling the big shoes your uppers left, and sometimes wonder why others are able to get the easy way out. You curse and swear at the miscellanous work (crudely termed as arrows) assigned to you from time to time, and grumbleon about problematic units and unforgiving chief clerks/parents. Why not change your mindset instead, and view each piece of work you do as an endorsement of your abilities? That even thoughwe may be classified as “service-fit”, and may have suffered injuries, but you, like other guys serving NS out there, are still doing your part for the nation? Take every obstacle at work conquered,each placated chief clerk, each satisfied parent, each directive sent out, as testimony to the amazing innate prowess you have within yourself. Its always easy to lament on one’s inability, but onewill never feel happy/good at the end of the day. Instead, treasure what you have, what you are able to do, and you’ll lead a much happier life. And maybe, the workload/burden might somehow not seem so daunting anymore.

2. To the DXOs, especially those with kids - These days its hard being parents. Educational qualifications are a must for your kids to somehow be assured of a comfortable life. Yet at the same time, other aspects of life should not be ignored. Life is so fragile, we’ll never know what happens tomorrow. As much as your child needs to study, he also needs to interact with his friends, do something he enjoys. Sometimes the pressure and stress of the examinations (especially major ones) grow too huge, tempers are lost, and maybe, too much expectations is placed on your children.Take a step back, realise that it was after all, the thoughts of your children’s well-being in mind that you pushed them so hard in the first place, that all you wanted of them was to feel happy/comfortable.After all, the reason why Aya was able to face up to her disease so bravely was because her mother constantly made sure she felt loved, and that never let her feel that she was a liability/burden to the family. A happy child is always a motivated child, and perhaps, a word of praise/motivation from you today, or a little action showing your love for your children might just pay off in the examinations.

3. To everyone - We subconsciously take alot of things in life for granted: Our relationships, our environment, and sometimes even our abilities. How often have we awakened late in the morning, and then rushing to the toilet to wash up and get changed for work, ignoring the fresh morning air? Do we ever stop along the way to work, and marvel at how hardy the grass growing at the sides can be,or how beautifully the flowers are blooming? Engrossed by our work, have we taken relationships for granted, and let our jobs take precedence over our families, friends and relatives? How often have welooked on enviously at the wealthy, the sportspeople, instead of appreciating the stability we have in our lives, and forgetting the simple fact that we are able to walk/talk/see/hear? Questions that are sobasic, yet these are often the questions that elude us, the questions we somehow know the answer to but somehow never got the chance to address them.

As for myself, after reading this book, I’ve beening making a conscious effort to appreciate what I have. For example, I make it a point to spend at least 3 minutes by my window every morning to take inthe fresh, cool morning air. It’s really wonderful, and does a real good job in shaking off the lethargy. I make it a point to engage in conversation with my parents, busy as we are, for at least 15-20 minutesa day. Before I start work today, I remind myself, as I open my cupboards, that today is another day testifying that I’m an able-bodied worker, and at the end of the work day, I congratulate myself on a jobwell done, and encourage myself to do even better the next work day.

To end off this article, Aya passed away when she was 23, 8 years after the discovery of the disease. Till today, her book has inspired sold over a million copies in Japan, and she continues to be an inspiration to all who know her. The book I read was a Chinese translation of her autobiography; in addition, her autobiography has been adapted into a Japanese drama serial of the same name, and canbe found at any video store. As for the translated book, apparently its sold out in Singapore, 1 month after its launch here, so I guess interested readers would have to wait for the time being, or you could always borrow the book from me.

Thank you once again, for reading this book review. I do hope that something inside this article has touched you, and maybe, helped you in some way or another. Back to your happy bustling lives then!

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murmurs of a lovesick idiot

I’m suddenly feeling quite empty and lonely, again.

I know it sounds like I just went through some break-up, erm… the problem is I am/was not attached, and have never been attached once. Sad…..

Call it selfish thoughts on my part, but I really want to experience this feeling i see/hear/read about everyday, from the papers to books to serials. This feeling called love, specifically the one between couples.

I sense my tagboard is going to have comments again…. *shrugs*

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rumble rumble rumble…

I didn’t feel like posting, after all, my mind is blank right now. In essence I’m rumbling and making things up as I type, so apologies if I sound a lil’ weird.

In any case, the reason why I’m blogging when I didn’t feel like blogging is because I think the past week earned a mention on my blog. But the problem is, I don’t feel like blogging about what has happened the past week, because I don’t know how/what to blog about, and contents that I should leave out before I get myself/others into trouble.

What a dilemma.

Anyway the past week was a dreary week; spent most of my office hours looking towards 1730pm. After all, its the post-election lull, and all the MPs are still drunk on martini I guess. Ok lah, Hawai Daipi is hardworking, I received one from him on wednesday. Oh well, that explains why Sembawang won comfortably. I digress.

Had 2 semi-gatherings this week. Both involved the 2LT called Ben Tan. First up was dinner with a yiling who looked totally funky with a pair of yellow rimmed plastic specs, black nails and a brightly coloured bandana. Suffice to say, it was a bully session whereby the two DHS-VJC alumnus poked me into submission over a sumptuous meal of erm… HK food, I think. Next up was another gathering, co-incidentally featuring 2LT Ben once more and starring 2 lovely ladies, Suzie and Cheryl. Well, was fun catching up with the duo/trio (of course things are fun when you’re in the company of ladies, compared to otakus, and yes, this is a veiled insult to you all wahahahahahahahahaha), even though they were, well, quite early. Anyway, Happy 20th birthday Cheryl, and kuai4 gao1 zhang3 da4!

There’s supposed to be like another JC class gathering tonight; erm.. sorry peeps most likely won’t be going. Just checked my wallet and found it real empty…. Unless someone is rich enough to treat me, otherwise the loan sharks will come after me soon.

In any case, loan sharks remind me of Wesley. I need to buy the serial to keep. Meanwhile, I’ll continue to practise singing It Had to be You in the bathroom, and totally freak everyone in my block out.

Shit. I need to type a book review by this tuesday. Why am I blogging instead?

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