silens-silentium

This is going to chronicle my struggles in mastering wordpress.  I’m an Internet geek.  Oh well.

Why am I awake now?

Apparently I wanted to take a nap at 5pm to catch up on my sleep… and I slept all the way till 5am, where I woke up and noticed (after turning on the com) that I missed 2 second round matches!!! ARGH.

In any case, been wondering about my incredible sleepiness these days, and I have a few thoughts… work, friends, parents, relationships.

I should sleep more. nite.

In retrospect, it was a bad week, even though yesterday was uplifting. Still clouds trouble me, especially issues pertaining to my personal life.

I don’t know what else is safe to say here. There is so much content to write (my thoughts/feelings) but doing so would…. not be fair, at least to the person in question.

Maybe i’ll just end with a question: Purely platonic friendship between opposite genders. Possible?

Hmmz, maybe to extrapolate: Between retaining a friendship with the opposite gender, and pursuing him/her with the risk of losing that friendship, is it worth it? Or can the friendship not be affected at all?

I realised I haven’t blogged for about 1 week.

I’m still deciding whether to continue waiting or to just give up. This is going to be the most explicit post so far. No more subtle clues.

I don’t know if I really like this girl, even though it seems that I have been waiting for her for so long, maybe not as long as the 3.5 years I’ve known her, but at least for quite some time. I don’t even mind if a relationship doesn’t materialise in the end, at least we’ve tried our best. What frustrates me now though, is that I seem to be unable to even get near her. I may be wrong, but I think it somehow is really getting to me, and its affecting my everyday life, from work to personal life. Which explains why I am letting off steam.

I’m not going to let it affect me anymore, especially work wise. As for my personal life, I’ll see what I can do to minimise the impact. Meanwhile, I really wish for some changes, hopefully in a positive way.

I can predict that I’m going to regret writing this blog entry, but its the most candid post so far.

“金色的舞鞋伴着音乐
baby你的眼睛是一弯深邃的湖水哦
忽明忽灭掩藏不可思议的美
让我晕眩在悬崖边谁知一睁眼就不见

Waiting for you, I’m waiting for you
Waiting for you kiss me at the night
为何你cinderella 留给我一望无际的思念
Waiting for you, I’m waiting for you
Waiting for you come here to my dream
牵着你不断旋转一直到黑发变成了银线
Waiting for you waiting for you 直到永远

哦忽明忽灭掩藏不可思议的美
让我眩晕在悬崖边谁知一睁眼就不见

Waiting for you, I’m waiting for you
waiting for you kiss me at the night
为何你cinderella 留给我一望无际的思念
Waiting for you, waiting for you
Waiting for you kiss me at the night
为何你cinderella 留给我一望无际的思念
Waiting for you, I’m waiting for you
Waiting for you come here to my dream
牵着你不断旋转一直到黑发变成了银线

Waiting for you…..”

-Waiting for you
Sung by 胡彦斌

The ending scene of the MTV featured the girl thinking she was playing hide and seek, and the guy using a pole to jump across (off) the building. Funny description? Sorry, I’ve had enough of sad endings, which are more than ample to see in real life.

Of course, somehow it struck a chord with me; some might know/understand why. I guess I am dumb, after all, and still hoping for a good ending like in most novels and drama serials. *shakes head* Oh well…… time to sleep.