I realised I haven’t blogged for about 1 week.
I’m still deciding whether to continue waiting or to just give up. This is going to be the most explicit post so far. No more subtle clues.
I don’t know if I really like this girl, even though it seems that I have been waiting for her for so long, maybe not as long as the 3.5 years I’ve known her, but at least for quite some time. I don’t even mind if a relationship doesn’t materialise in the end, at least we’ve tried our best. What frustrates me now though, is that I seem to be unable to even get near her. I may be wrong, but I think it somehow is really getting to me, and its affecting my everyday life, from work to personal life. Which explains why I am letting off steam.
I’m not going to let it affect me anymore, especially work wise. As for my personal life, I’ll see what I can do to minimise the impact. Meanwhile, I really wish for some changes, hopefully in a positive way.
I can predict that I’m going to regret writing this blog entry, but its the most candid post so far.