silens-silentium

The second Gintama ED is stuck in my head. Its very catchy, even though the lyrics are quite cheesy. I guess the theme of raindrops really applies to me.

For some reason, I seem to be stuck in a void. I’m handicapped by my lack of money, so I’m unable to go out. I stay at home and hog the computer and PS3, but then I get sick of both rather quickly, because of a lack of games. I can’t download games fast enough, and I do not have enough money to buy new games. I get lethargic very easily, but I wake up after napping for only 1 hour. Little by little; alone they are definitely not irritating enough to frustrate anyone, but cumulatively…. It’s just like those irritating drizzles that are large enough to force you to stay at home, but not huge enough to to seem to last long. So one is perennially hoping for the rain to stop, but it is widely known that such rain lasts the longest.

I know I’m whining, and that there are loads of ways around this situation I’m in, but hey! It’s the FUCKING holidays man, it’s almost a given right for one to slack away. Oh well, there’s loads for me to do, I must admit. Regaining some semblance of physical fitness, writing those abandoned novellas,  finishing those thick non-fiction books etc.. I ought to start planning for next term too.

Guess it’s one of those habits of mine: Accumulation and procrastination till it cannot be ignored. Oh well. Time to start gritting my teeth and ease myself back into the rigors of university life again.

And yeah, I guess I ought to widen my social circle. To do that of course, I’ll need to exorcise the demons of the past, and close those doors I’ve left open behind me. I need to snap that vicious cycle, and that means I ought to stop thinking of you that way my dear. If it doesn’t stop now, the next I know it, I’m 40 and all alone, with only my thoughts and imagination for company.

Watch this space, I’ll be uploading some of my own short stories when I finish them. Hopefully. I should start with the Mary and her lamb piece.