Doesn’t feel that way though. CNY, as I mentioned in another post, is around the corner. Another favourite festival of mine, and well, it does seem dumb to rev the engine, only to wind it back down again almost immediately. Oh well.
Anyway, I intended to use today to do more self-reflections and perhaps do up another incisive post about my past demons, but somehow I came up with a blank. Until now. Spent time chatting with Zer0 last night about relationships, this morning again about triads and the like, chatted with Yong Yun in the evening also about relationships, chanced upon this web comic that has quite a few bright sparks to it (some of the punchlines are fucking funny), configured my new phone (Nokia E51), and basically, just lounged around. Oh, I even managed to take a nap in between.
The downside of today was the discovery that I didn’t get allocated any tutorial slots at all for my JS1101E. Well, the upside is that I managed to get my first choice for all my other tutorials, and that Stephie didn’t get allocated any slots too. So Thursday is going to be D-Day, for my JS1101E.
While speaking to the above-mentioned people, I got quite positive feedback about my reflections/insights. Perhaps the greatest endorsement was from my dad, whom I narrated a watered-down version of my reflections before he and my mum left for their dancing class, and commented that, wow, I’ve actually matured alot. Thanks for the approval dad. I’ll strive to sound older and more learned than you from now on!
Going back to the feedback, most whom I spoke to largely expressed approval on my trend of thought. This takes even more significance, when one speaks from experience, and the other is a budding psychologist. The last one, also a budding psychologist, commented that my posts were real emotional, but hey, that’s not too out of character. Thanks for the compliment, this shows that I am managing to convey my raw emotions/feelings across through words on a regular basis, something that I doubted I could previously. There are lots of other areas to work on, but at least my basic approaches and views towards love seem quite sound. BUT I HOPE I AM NOT GETTING SHITTED OR FOOLED.
Anyway, given that comment about my emotional posts set me off on a comparison spree. I went back through my archives again (at least for the last 6 months), to take a look at my previous posts, and see which post was the most emotional. All I can say is wow, I can write emotional stuff when I want to. Seems also that as a result of my (more) frequent writings, I’ve been plugging alot of the loopholes of the previous emotional articles. And yeah, I found the next topic to reflect about too: My JC life, a paradigm-shifting period I’ve always referred to, mostly briefly, but nevertheless important.
One step at a time. Rebuilding my confidence really seems like going through physical rehabilitation, I’ll just have to grit and bear with the pain, and remind myself not to succumb to the pain.
Okay back to my JS1101E readings.
P.S. Just for easy self-reference, I’ve included over here the links to some of the more emotional posts I’ve made over the last 6 months. Here, here, here, and here.