silens-silentium

… And the paper is finished.

After staying up the whole night, I’ve finally finished a paper I took forever to start. Not too difficult a paper to write, but somehow, my super high expectations always leads to frustration. I’m not totally done with the paper, but I think its the 90% completed version.

As I was working through the night, I had this overwhelming urge to just call someone, anyone, and just talk to him/her. I wonder why I’m turning soft. I used to like the solitude. In the end I didn’t call anyone, I just turned to my ipod. Which didn’t really help, because the songs I listened to were sappy Chinese retro love songs.

Off to sleep, looks like I can make it for dinner after all.

It’s afternoons like this where I feel superbly lonely. I’m not going to start working on my term paper until tomorrow. I just don’t see the need to start and finish so early, not when I have 2 whole days (literally) to do it.

I have a lot on my mind now, but I just don’t feel like blogging. Not when my thoughts involve controversial stuff that I don’t think would be very welcome to those reading my blog.

Not in the lewd way. I am referring to my constant urge to sing suddenly. Continue Reading »

I had typed an uber long post, pouring everything out. Then I realised, what good would it do?

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulders, and I just wish someone would just be there. For me.
The hurt an unintentional phrase can cause. I’m absolutely crushed, truth be told.

I guess I ought to set my new year according to the Chinese Calendar instead. Anyway, here’s wishing everyone I’ve yet to greet but who reads my blog (very unlikely) a very happy lunar new year! Do remember me when you strike your Toto or 4D!

In any case, it finally seems to me that I’ve crossed over to 2008, and that the holidays are over. Like the school term has officially started. After letting myself go, and allowing myself to simmer and boil and go emotional, in between bouts of faked , at times genuine, cheeriness through the 4 days of Lunar New Year, I’ve finally settled down, once and for all, and made the switch to geek mode. Woo. Better late than never.

Hey, the prospect of going to school on Vday doesn’t look that daunting anymore. After all, I’ve tonnes of research material to look through, and 4 proposals to finish by this weekend, of which 2 directly affect my CAP, and the other 2 affects my resume/portfolio.

I sound like a university undergraduate. Finally. I seem to have gotten pretty interesting project work mates too. I’m hoping they’ll prove to be like me, so I’m freed up to do more mugging, or focus on other projects.

Off to sleep. Another long day beckons.