I’m choking. Suffocating. The flu has really hamstrung me.
I’ve got an essay due on Friday. I’ve got the outline written out, I’ve got all the research material with me, but I just can’t seem to sit down and read the material and start writing.
I’m really tired at the moment, but I can’t get to sleep. I wanted to take an afternoon nap, so I could work through the night tonight. I can’t, for various reasons, not least being the reservoir of mucus stuck up there between my eyes in the cavities.
Okay, I’m going to try taking a nap again.
After catching a movie and having a short second dinner, I took the MRT home. I had braced myself for a long and monotonous journey home, but somehow, despite taking an alternate route (which definitely took a longer time) to get home, the ride was unexpectedly fast. Too fast in fact.
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what i can remember
is alot like water
trickling down a page
of the most beautiful colors
i can’t quite put my
finger down on the moment
that i became like … this
you see, i’m the bravest girl
you will ever come to meet
and yet i shrink down to nothing
at the thought of someone
really seeing me
i think my heart is wrapped around
and tangled up in winding weeds
but i don’t wanna go on living
being so afraid of showing
someone else my.. imperfections
even though my feet are trembling
and every word i say comes stumbling
i will bare it all.. watch me unfold
unfold
these hands that i hold
behind my back are
bound and broken by my own doing
and i can’t feel
anything, anymore
i need a touch to remind me
i’m still real..
my soul
it’s dying to be free
i can’t live the rest of my life
so guarded
it’s up to me to choose..
what kind of life i lead.
cause i don’t wanna go on living
being so afraid of showing
someone else my.. imperfections
even though my feet are trembling
and every word i say comes stumbling
i will bare it all.. watch me unfold
unfold
i will allow someone to love me
i will allow someone to love me…
love me.. love me…
- Unfold, Marie Digby
For a long while, I sort of doubted my ability to maintain my grades this semester. The second semester syndrome, as they call it. In any case, I’m glad I’ve received a timely booster/reminder that I’m not that mediocre after all.
Back to work.
I’ve resolved to to make a post before going to bed. After all, it has been 2 very eventful weeks for me.
Or rather, I’ve had very interesting conversations with so many people over these two weeks. I wish I could post the chat logs, but I don’t think it’d be rather appropriate. Or nice. In any case, to all of you, my sincere thanks for sharing those insights, and nice/interesting/anecdotal stuff with me. Really kept me smiling through these two weeks. I do hope we continue maintaining contact. And keep disturbing me, I like pleasant distractions!
1 week down, 5 more to go I believe. Before the reading week, then the exams. I do hope I can last through this period.