For some reason, I thought it was more cool as a title than Pensive. Too much Potter-reading.
In any case, asking… was much easier than I expected, even though the mode of asking was not as ideal as I would have wanted.
Perhaps it was the ease of getting the answer, but I’m going to grab hold of it and not let go anymore. I’ve had enough of being restricted by the positions I hold, and the resulting behavior expected of me. I’m never going to relive that agony again, and if it means giving up the position, I’d gladly do so.
I owe someone a big thank you though, for being the first to knock sense into me.