silens-silentium

It’s much harder than I thought, and there’s only so much I can ignore.

Despite all the whining, frustration and angry words, she’s still very important to me. Very, and I still care a lot  about her (too much perhaps), despite the cold shoulder. I always talk about a barrier between us, and sometimes I wonder if that barrier is self-imposed, and that the one being difficult is just me.

I’ve been thrown off-balance the entire semester; and rather than rope you into this insanity streak, I’d rather just stay away while trying to work things through myself. I don’t know what’s going to happen in the future, but I really do want you to be happy, whatever it is you choose.

1. More self-improvement

2. Get to know you even better.

3. Wait until you are ready. Whenever you are. Graduation? Sure.

Lord,
grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change,
the courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.

Seems that in recent years, Christmas has been a rather difficult period for me. It’s no different this year. On second thought though, I’d take this Christmas anytime over previous years. Especially last year’s.

Then again, I hate being asked questions to which I have no answer to.